Bleed MeBleed meBleed Me by DareDreemer
Drain the pain from within
As blackness crashes down upon me
Threatening to destroy what's left of me
What was once light is now black
The chains rattle at my wrists
And at my ankles
The bars are cold and unyielding
Will I know freedom ever again?
I shiver and sit in silence
I say again
The quiet is deafening
Trapped in an endless dream
Once there was fresh grass to trod
Now only cold hard ground
Don't let me drown in my tears
Make the hurt end
Let me see the light, I plead
I want to walk beneath the stars
Tears stain my cheek, slithering down
Why am I here?
What is this torture?
I whimper desperately
Take what you came her for...
So that I can live once more
My ApologyOutwardly I always wore a smile,My Apology by DareDreemer
I was pretending that everything was alright and that nothing was wrong.
And though perhaps not everyday was that true,
But most days inside, I was crying, I was no longer strong.
A few close at hand, got a window view.
They saw the truth, the lies that could not hide.
I was fortunate that they could see through the facades.
That they chose to have faith and stood by my side.
They do not know all the tears they wiped away,
Or how they kept me going, when I could barely stand to walk.
All the times they sat up late at night with me, until the dark and dismal morn.
They helped me when no one else could get me to talk.
If only you knew the anguish that has eroded my heart,
The guilt and the feeling of despair.
How I longed to have things back the way they use to be,
To step out side, to breathe and kiss the cool evening air.
I know I have hurt you and left you without any answers.
It wasn't my intention to forget you.
Oh, if only I had seen sooner, w
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Loki (Female Clone) = The Avengers
Zombie Survivor = Stuck In Savannah
Grell Sutcliff (Modern) = Kuroshitsuji (Black Butler)
Cheshire Cat (Lingerie) = Alice In Wonderland
In Process for 2014:
Grell Sutcliff (R-rated) = Kuroshitsuji Musical II
Grell Sutcliff (Traditional) = Kuroshitsuji
Sebastian Michaelis (True Form) = Kuroshitsuji
Aqua = KH Birth By Sleep
Alois Trancy = Kuroshitsuji (Black Butler)
Christine Daae = Phantom of The Opera
Injection Fairy Lily = Yu-Gi-Oh Card
I'm a Scorpio who Loves all things Disney. I'm a natural born Preformer. I love photography second to preforming. I dream of one day visiting England, Ireland & Scotland. Music is oxygen to me. I study Dance, Theatre & Opera. I'm obsessed with; Black Butler (Kuroshitsuji), Phantom of the Opera & Kingdom Hearts. I'm from California. My favorite color is green. I'm unique & different. I love being a black sheep, being an individual. I'm like an onion, there are many layers to me. Just when you think you know me, you will discover I'm more than you could have ever imagined.
As far as writing goes, I have been telling stories since before I could read & write. I love movies & books. I have always been heavily inspired by visuals in movies & descriptions in books. I use that to my advantage when I write. I love details & am a stickler for them. My specialty when I write is, dreams & flashbacks. I have a tremendous amount of fun writing them. I have an addiction for fairy tales & draw a lot of inspiration from them. From classics to more modern ideas of fairy tales. In addition to writing Fanfics, I also write poetry. Though for poetry I have to be moved to write it. Poetry is not something that easily comes to me & most times it comes to me when I'm sound asleep. Now days I mainly write Fanfics with one of several RP partners, whom I love dearly & have become my best friends. I will say my weakest point when writing is grammar. It was never my strongest point & I am terrible about run on sentences. I am working on it constantly & studying with the goal of continuously growing as a writer & fine tuning my craft. I hope that you enjoy my page & the up & coming adventures that will eventually be making their way here.
My Besties (online and offline):
I said I would let everyone know how my doctor visit went, so I will start there. My new doctor was very sweet and very nice. She also said that the growth on my leg is not cancerous, but as a precaution she wants me to see a Dermatologist and have a biopsy done, to be safe, just in case. So that is the next thing on my list. I have to contact my insurance company in order to do this, but will luck I will be able to get in and see one soon. At least I shouldn’t have to worry about it being something worse than what it is is.
I also have gotten my kitchen almost completely cleaned. Just working on dishes and restocking the cabinets.
In addition a couple of packages arrived for me. One was the Book of Circus mirror, vvlin91 was so kind to purchase for me and send me. It is awesome, but I will not be opening it. Since I was unable to acquire two, I will keep this one nice and protected. Not to mention I have terrible habit of breaking mirrors.
Then yesterday these two lovelies arrived and I of course immediately read volume 19. I really love Sullivan. She’s funny as all hell.
My first two wigs have arrived and they are a tinge darker than I had imagined, but still I think the colour will work for my new cosplay. I can’t wait to get my hands into them and seeing if I can pull of this new hairdo for Grell.
So far I have struck out on the shoes. The first pair was far to wine coloured and the second to big and to tall. I would never make it walking around a convention in them. Just waiting for my third pair to get here and keeping my fingers crossed they will be perfect.
I am finally caught up on replies and I am cleaning up some unfinished ones, that will be making their way back to my blogs. So please keep an eye out for them.
I am also accepting rps on this blog now. If you want to meet my Eric Slingby, you are welcome to. Or if you would like to give Undertaker a go, he could really use some practice.
I am working on some top secret projects and finishing others. I hope to have some things finished soon and uploaded.
I am still working on organizing my blogs and cleaning them up. So I apologize for the slow posting occurring on most of them. I appreciate your patience as I go through this process. Remember in order to see all that I post for Kuroshitsuji you need to follow more than just my main blog as I do not duplicate posts.
Also, I never posted this picture, but better late than never, right? vvlin91, thank you for sending these to me as well. They are so small, but so cute.
Anyways, that is it for now. I will catch up with you all later. I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend.